Today my world is complete.

**This is from November 29th ** 

I need to write.



I am bursting at the seams with excitement. My heart swelled three sizes when I looked at the test and everything everyone said I would feel... I felt. Overwhelmed, excited... happier then ever before.



I laughed and cried and made the ugly face... I wandered around the house, naked (I was about to shower) trying to figure out what to do. My cheeks started to ache.

I have never felt like that before. I want to feel like that forever.

I smile when I think about it, then I laugh, then I cry.

I have never felt more like myself.

I can't wait to tell Richard. I can't wait to hug him and call him 'Daddy'. I ran out to Shoppers (after shower and dressing) and picked up a card and a soother. I laid them on his pillow for when he gets home. He'll have a minute to process it before I wake up... and then I will cry, and laugh all over again.

I am crying right now... crying and smiling.

How am I going to keep this a secret for 2 more months???

I only wish I would have waited to feel all of this at the same time as Richard, but his moment will come and I will be ready.

Its funny... this is the first month since trying that I haven't felt pregnant. I have felt bloated and nauseous with waves of boob ache, but never as intense as the last four months.

I prayed every night to Nana and to God that I would have a baby. I spoke to Santa and made promises I am going to keep. I smiled every time I caught myself slipping and I avoided googling everything. I didn't even look at my P.Tracker until today... a day late.

I'm pregnant.

I want to yell it, but I want to share it with Richard first. It's killing me to keep this to myself, but only a few more hours. Then he will be home...

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Oh and our due date... August 8th. Uncle Paul's birthday and the day Richard and I met. Its kismet.

I am SO in love.

We have a doctors appointment tomorrow to confirm... well that is NOT why we have the appointment, but the timing is perfect.

252 days until I meet you. I love you more then anyone has ever loved anyone.

Laugh with me. Grow with me. Learn with me and teach me.

LOVE!!